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Resolved to Resolute

8af3463b6882ec19def84e604abcb759I always enjoy celebrating holidays, and I get really into the cheesy traditions that come with them. So it should come as no surprise that I’m having a fun time making resolutions for 2016. I saw on Twitter that a girl wrote out a list of her resolutions and taped it to her wall so that she would be inspired by it all the time. I loved that idea mostly for how organized it sounded and because nothing makes me happier than a nicely composed list. So here’s a lazy list post full of things that I might/maybe/hopefully will change about my life in the coming year.

  1. GET A NEW FULL-TIME JOB! You know, with a company that actually cares about its employees and the work they do where I’m equally happy to be there. I know it’s possible to wake up every day not hating my job, and I’d like to live that life now.
  2. Meditate every day for at least 15 minutes.
  3. Expand my freelancing career.
  4. Pitch (and hopefully end up contributing) to more reputable blogs and websites.
  5. Make more of an effort to do things I want to do while applying for jobs (start attending Spanish classes, go to bike mechanic workshops, etc.).
  6. Get clip-in pedals and shoes for my bike. From there I’ll try not to fall too often, but I don’t know how realistic that is.
  7. Stretch every day (this is ambitious for me, even though it sounds super easy).
  8. Make strides in actually dealing with my anxiety rather than just making excuses for its persistence.
  9. Pay off my ever-increasing credit card debt. UGHHH.
  10. Start writing fiction again, and eventually try submitting my pieces to literary journals—eek!
  11. Do a multi-day bike tour. Canada? Southern bike trip? NYC -> DC?
  12. Make more connections in the writing/blogging world.
  13. Ride another century. I’m looking at you, 2016 TransAlt NYC Century!
  14. Make more of an effort to enjoy New York’s many galleries and museums. Thanks to the NYC ID, this shouldn’t be too hard hopefully!
  15. Start thinking about the possibility of what life could be like if I were to write a novel one day.
  16. Last but not least, cuddle my perfect cat way more.
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10 Important Things I’ve Learned in 25 Years

25thI’ve hit another milestone, which is basically what I feel like I’ve been doing since I turned 16. For the past month and a half, I’ve been attempting to compose a list of important lessons I’ve taken away from life in these short (long?) 25 years. Initially I was going to do a list of 25 things, but that would be a long ass post that no one would read. So I cutcutcut and here we are! Hopefully it doesn’t come off as preachy because that certainly isn’t what I was going for. I feel like, especially lately, I’ve come to a lot of conclusions due to some pretty crazy life experiences, and naturally I wanted to share them with the anonymous readers of my blog.

  1. Who gives a shit what strangers in public think of you. High school me wouldn’t be caught dead going outside without straightening my hair until it was a nightmare of split ends, doing my whole “thick black eyeliner, emo girl” thing. Now it’s a miracle if I can make it through a train ride without my head falling backwards, mouth dropping open, and drooling on myself. These people will probably never see me again, so why do I care if the bags under my eyes or the food I spilled on jeans (pretty much a daily occurrence) bother them?
  2. Family members are the perfect people to help you at your lowest. Time and time again when a problem arises or I find myself in a situation where it feels impossible to recover, my family is there to pick me up. Even if we usually don’t see eye-to-eye, there are a lot of simple reassurances that a close family member can offer. Plus endless hugs.
  3. The people who complain the most are often the ones with the least to complain about. I’ve seen it happen plenty of times. Hell, I’ve DONE it plenty of times. But once you’re faced with a true tragedy, it’s easier to listen to people complain about how annoying their day was as a distraction from your own problems.
  4. Being single is the perfect opportunity to rediscover yourself. I touched on this in my Valentine’s Day post, but I honestly love being single. I love prioritizing myself and working to make myself a happier Nicole every day, and this is something that I’m truly able to get from not having to worry about a significant other. Relationships are fun, but personally I feel like I’m a better, more content person when I’m single. Which is…depressing…Oh well, OVER IT.
  5. On that note…Prioritizing yourself isn’t selfish. Of course it’s nice to care about other people, and I’m not saying we should only care about ourselves all the time. I don’t even do that (I also like my cat!). We should recognize that making ourselves happy is really what matters most because we’re the ones living our lives — not our best friends, not our parents, not our significant others. Worry about yourself before worrying about the rest.
  6. Having a job that you enjoy is absolutely integral. After working a job that makes me miserable pretty much every day for the last year and a half, I’m realizing how absolutely important it is to work somewhere that I am excited to wake up for. Chasing down a dream job is hard work, but getting there is part of the fun and where you do a lot of growing.
  7. Having expectations often leads to disappointment, and maybe that’s because you already know what the outcome will be. I feel like when I’m excited for a date or seeing a friend or really anything, it ends up not being as great as I thought it would be. And maybe I always knew it’d be that way. Maybe deep down I had this quiet voice trying to tell me that there were signs that the date would probably suck, or that hanging out with my friend wasn’t realistic for when we planned it. But instead of admitting it to myself, I built it up into this incredible fantasy that ultimately doesn’t come to be. This is all simply speculation, but if I’m being completely honest with myself, it’s usually the case.
  8. Sometimes you have to force yourself to do the things you love to do. It seems like such a weird concept, but after I graduated, I fell into a rut where I stopped doing so many of the things I was passionate about (yoga, cooking, writing). These have all been things I have to make myself find time to do, but the payoff is always worth it because I’m doing something I love and enjoying the hell out of it.
  9. Being nice is great, but it shouldn’t come at the price of compromising yourself. I’m realizing more and more that as great as it is to be nice to people and try to help as much as possible, it leads to me getting taken advantage of often. I have to figure out how to walk the fine line between being helpful and also being self-assured enough to not let people use me.
  10. People are hypocrites. I’m hypocritical. You’re hypocritical. We’re all hypocritical, yeah! We all need to calm down and be honest with ourselves, even if it means admitting to believing something you might be ashamed to believe. It’s silly and deep down, you know the truth.
  11. BONUS: Life is way more enjoyable when you can laugh at it. Did you just fall down the stairs? Trip in public? Spill food on yourself? Find yourself in a bizarre/horrible social situation? Laugh it off. These are circumstances that I find myself in fairly often (seriously…), and now I’m in the habit of giggling about it and waiting for the next ridiculous thing to happen.
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How I’ve Changed Since Moving to Brooklyn

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Since moving to Brooklyn, I’ve noticed that I’ve changed a bit since growing up (read: since college). Some of these changes I’m pleased with while others I don’t particularly care for. I’ve made a list — mostly because I love writing things in a list format, but also because I so desperately want to be seen as a professional blogger, and apparently in 2014 that means compiling lists. AM I BEING TAKEN SERIOUSLY YET?!

  1. My nails (fingers and toes) need to be polished at all times. I don’t know when this became such a priority for me, but I feel so incomplete without some cheap polish thrown on my nails. It’s at an obsessive point where I feel less put together without it now. I never gave a shit before — and yes, I definitely still bite my nails/cuticles, so it’s not like my hands even look that nice. But rest assured, if my nails are chipped, then I have some plans for my next free night.
  2. Cooking is something that needs to be planned. I LOVE COOKING. Do I really do it anymore? HELL NO. I rarely have the time to heat up a microwavable meal let alone cook an entire dish made up of more than one food for myself. Lately I’ve been making more of a point to cook on Sundays or Mondays when I actually have some spare time, but man was I in a cooking slump a few months ago. Even the meals I do cook are pretty minimal; maybe one day I’ll work back up to my old standards of making actual meals I want to share with people rather than the abominations that I currently hide behind in shame.
  3. I know way too much about the construction industry and bookkeeping. Seriously. Seriously. I have friends who work in H.V.A.C. and some that are tapers — most people my age don’t even know what that acronym stands for or how to go about meeting someone who would. I’m well-versed in subcontracts, proposals, purchase orders, change orders, and invoices. I know way more about insurance than I’d ever want to; health, dental, building, subcontractor, COI’s, workers comp — you name it, I know how to deal with it. I’ve mastered the technique of getting difficult clients to pay their bills and can point out which subcontractors are the most annoying when it comes to getting paid (I become irrationally angry with our millworker due to this). The fact that I know what the word “lien” even means disturbs me.
  4. It is way harder to see friends. I like to think I’m pretty good at keeping in touch with people, but damn, adulthood is challenging. Especially if you’re single and all your friends are in relationships, or vice versa — either way, it seems to keep completely flip flopping on me. Guess I’m just not up on the latest trends. Oh how I long for the days when I could walk down the street into a friend’s apartment and just hang out, my only responsibilities of the day being a two hour class and a four hour shift at Friendly’s. And if those friends were busy, then I’d just walk next door and find someone else to impose on.
  5. Owning boots became really crucial to surviving the winter. Let me specify by what I mean by boots: not Uggs and not rain boots. Geez, I have some standards still. Plus I’m just one mispronounced “drawer” away from fulfilling a total Long Island stereotype. When I say boots, I mean the fake leather boots that come up to your shin or the ones that stop at the ankle. I don’t know when it happened exactly, but suddenly I have five or six pairs where I didn’t even want a single pair a little over a year ago. And it became incredibly important to get non-ripped ones once my favorite brown ones (</3) got torn up last winter (damn you, Payless). I have different types and colors — literally every outfit I own can be accompanied with boots. I didn’t feel the need to wear boots in the shitty Binghamton winters, but apparently Brooklyn took me to my breaking point.

Well there’s obviously way more ways in which I’ve changed since leaving Binghamton, but this will have to do for now. Maybe it’ll become something I add to in the future. This post was fun to write, but also feels entirely like what you come to expect someone in their mid-20s living in Brooklyn to produce. Maybe this is growing up. Or maybe there’s just something in the water.

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18 Struggles Only Over-Thinkers Will Understand | Thought Catalog

18 Struggles Only Over-Thinkers Will Understand | Thought Catalog

I don’t really reblog others, buuuuttt this list is actually a VERY accurate compilation of how I approach every day issues and has got me [over]thinking.

It’s such a problem that sometimes I overthink my overthinking, evaluating it and wondering what I can do to fix it. Why is this something I do? How come it preoccupies so much of my headspace? Does this mean there’s something wrong with me? What’s wrong with me? I try to exercise restraint on my mind, but it’s usually a battle my willpower enters with a defeatist attitude. Calming down and relaxing are not remotely feasible until I have processed every single possibility; distractions will only prolong the inevitable scenario, which is me leaving some time to spare as I plunge headfirst into my thought pool.

These nagging, endless thoughts become particularly pertinent right as I’m about to fall asleep. Nice, warm, comfy in bed when suddenly…can people choke on their tongues in their sleep? 

Like…what? Why? Where did you even come from?! My daytime brain is bright and airy but once the sun goes down, it turns as dark as the sky.

Mostly my overanalyzing nature becomes an actual problem when I’m unable to move on. There’s an obsessive compulsive tinge to being an overthinker, especially when there’s just no answer. There’s a reason for everything (Right? Please?!), but when those sneaky, unanswerable questions slither into my mind, I can’t shake them until I can find some sort of response to give. The only requirement of ridding myself of these burdens is to find an answer that makes sense and leaves no doubt that it is the only option. Otherwise it becomes like an unreachable itch; I might forget about it for an hour, a day, a year — but it’ll be back to remind me that I never gave it an ending.

This is my gift and my curse. I enjoy some of the truly insightful and amazing conclusions I’ve come to; I’m able to really flush out my problems and remain levelheaded as I work them out; I see every unflattering side to the situations I find myself in. But sometimes, exploring my own mind scares me more than any irrational fear I may have.

18 Struggles Only Over-Thinkers Will Understand | Thought Catalog.

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